Ponderings.....

Though this post does not necessarily fall in line with my 'Excuses for not actively blogging' series , I am somehow pumped up to post a few lines(i mean a few hundred of course - I do not know how not to be verbose).

The haste with this I was recalled here to the US just after just over a month in India is indeed one of the most damning events that has taken place for a long time. The events that followed the announcement date for my trip could at best be described as - 'genocides'. A string of mishaps - interminably littered all over have left me little time to contemplate on the pros-n-cons. My usual 'tension-not' attitude took a severe blow with irreparable losses . I had always kept my priorities and people straight with most of my actions directed towards the well-being. In one of the more severest hits I feel suddenly being targeted for being near altruistic. I have never claimed to be a saint NOR did I ever feel good about sainthood, however, I have been innately very proud of myself for having the ability to balance out evenly on the aspect of NOT causing problem to most of the people around me - least of all those who I adore. It is indeed a very saddening reality that being insanely selfless normally results in 'the hunter gets hunted'.

I personally held high my belief that being good always boomerangs with more good added to it. Seldom does it happen that way. It is indeed shameful that goodness does not breed more goodness, instead it often results in being made the dart-board. Though I would not be very comfortable in revealing more details about all my plights on having the courage to deal with the intervening untoward situations, it would be more than enough to say that there are few things that can match the complexity of destiny. It twists and entangles people and situations in such an intricate cob-web that by the time people come out to free themselves it is almost a done-and-dusted story. I have rarely been in such a deeply contemplative state of mind leading to quite a few moments of black-out. However, admittance is half peace. My admission to the fact that quite a few many times in these 45 days I have been sleeping with the devil in my mind and an enraged anger directed towards the nameless.

First of all, the project for which I came to the US, on the imminent insistence of manager was all in the drain. The project after a fortnight of efforts had been called off owing to some business negotiations failing over SoW. Viola , the news was spread to the immediately affected people – me and the project manager who had been hired and fired in haste. The director of technologies had personally called a meeting and candy-coated the news and informed us that since the negotiations had stalled and hence the funding has been curtailed. In lieu of this ‘sudden’ development coming to light , there was just enough funding to pay my company for my services for just a week more. This in crude words means – we failed to complete the business side negotiations before jumping the gun and calling you from India to the US and hence with no money to fund my billing, I would be released from the project within a week. I was visibly upset, however my heart knew no bounds of happiness – as with no project for me, I would be sent back to India within 15 days of coming to the US. This would have given me another window to attend to domestic affairs. However, with the news that we would be allowed a maximum of 2 weeks to sit ‘un-employed’ on bench, after which failure to be pushed into a project would result in being sent back to India for re-deployment I was just counting my days left . Alas, luck rarely sees me in good light , the 12th day I was informed of an interview and pre-decided selection into one of the biggest projects won by my company. The interview went good , with the client manager asking me more of People Management questions – conflict resolution , span of power et al. Big mouth as I am, added to the fact the I had studied OB during one of my XL courses , I breezed past through the interview questions and most probably impressed the manager of my superior communication skills. I was selected and asked to re-locate to one of the most sparsely populated places – Greensboro, NC.

The project, as I have been informed is a long-term project – supposedly 3+ years which could be potentially stretched upto 5-7 years. However , since I harbor no intentions of sticking around in the US for so long , I would be definitely wrapping around my assigned project pretty sooner this year. The place Greensboro , is at best described as a loner place – the population seems to be just a shade over 1 Lakh. I have the first week of my stay was spent in the hotel and next week I came in and out of a friend’s place in a jiffy. Unbearably miser as he is , I could not stay a moment longer and I got out his place to shift to another friend’s place and soon we moved into our leased apartment from Feb 1. The friend’s with whom I have moved in are also new to the place and good fellows. Hopefully the stay over here should roll out pretty much smooth. Fingers crossed.

A few other extremely private happenings have indeed had a debilitating affect which I would spare to put in here. Strength of personality which I am extremely proud of , would surely make me come good.

I close this scribble here as I have no further intentions of pondering over the time which passed by in the last few days. Normally this is not the way I am accustomed to write or be in a deeply thoughtful mode , however I somehow motivated to keep my blog active instead of dead.

Keep rocking and blogging my dear friends !!!!